I was going to make a video describing how I retracted from everything business related, but I would rather write it out. Life is all about who you meet and who you know, it has everything to do with how you act and who you surround yourself with. Respect is something that has been prominent in the discussions with my closest friends. I do not know who reads my stuff by name, but if you are reading this you have to understand the core value of respect.
The most influential people in my life have a mutual level of respect for me as I do for them. The goals of the people in my life are all very separate and individual, but we each have above average aspirations. You have to share common beliefs with the people you consider your friends because you are who you associate with. The biggest lesson I have learned from these past two years is that in order to be given the respect you deserve from the people around you, you must first respect yourself. I personally believe that you have to spend time alone for a season in life in order to know yourself and capitalize on the things you love most about yourself.
That is what I have been doing, but it was never a train I meant to catch, I was just along for the ride that showed up. I decided a while ago that even though I experienced a lot of real life in two years, it was very transformative, even though I didn’t know what was going on at the time. In the time it takes to find yourself and know and love all the parts that make you unique in special, you might also lose yourself a little bit. I think I definitely went through a period of time that I wasn’t familiar with who I was anymore and that was when I missed the girl I used to know. Then I realized all of the things that made me who I was that I lost touch with were still there, but now refined and stronger. It happens to us all in different ways, a smooth sea has never made a skilled sailor.
Growth is in the less beautiful parts of life, but when you are on the other side of whatever you've been through, at least speaking for myself, I hold a lot of love in my heart for the girl that went through what she went through and still has the courage to see the best in people and wear my heart on my sleeve. I also think it is beautiful to see other people go through it too, because I just know they will be stronger because of it. If it weren’t for the lows of my past, I would not have the appreciation I do for the highs.
I fought to become the woman I am and now that I have taken my time to internalize all of the obstacles I have met, I know I deserve respect from the people I have in my life, as do they. So through all of that time period, even though I put a lot of things on the back burner, I still have the passion to be doing this and that is how I know it’s real. Not only that but I also checked a lot of things off my bucket list in the midst of it all, and I will forever give myself and others grace for that. <3